I'm Tired

TIRED  

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But what if that's not enough
It's like thru all the bullshyt 
I'm always trying to act tough
Well 
I'm tired of pretending 
That I don't give a damn 
letting it pass
Trying, pretend it's no big deal 

" I don't even know you. "
I'm tired of wondering 
And guessing,
How you really feel 
Thinking that you care 
But really you don't;
I don't know the deal 
No one can compete 
With who I made you out to be 
In my image 
In my heart 
You were painted, Perfectly 
And I'm tired 
Of pretending 
That I know who you are 
Tired 
Of telling myself -
You alone 
Could heal my scars 
So tired of that fact 
That we only ever get "this" far 
So, is this as good as it gets 
After all this time? 
Because,  after everything 
That we've been thru 

Tired 
Of pretending 
One day it'll all be fine 
Because, "it" is a lie 
I'm tired, of us never even working out 
Tired 
Of being vulnerable 
Feeling so full of doubt 
Tired 
Of examining every sweet thing 
That comes out yo' mouth 
Tired 
Of the silence 
What?! You can't speak to me now 
I'm so tired 
Of trying to figure out 
Who you want me to be 
and, what it is you think you need from me
Tired 
Of being afraid 
doubting & wondering 
Just what you see 
How many times 
Did you have to judge 
Before you finally figured out 
Who " I " really was 
Why don't you let me know 
What you're trying to do 
because, I've finally hit the breaking point 
That's right... 
I'm tired 
Of YOU